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I've got an attitude problem.

Doesn't [almost] everyone?

6/21

It felt like camp just yesterday, but it doesn't feel like summer?
I don't care there, but I do care now?
It's the longest day of the year, but I won't remember it much.
It's Father's Day, but I'm not seeing my daddy today.
I made him a card and a cool wood-burning piece.
But I'm not at home.
Santa Cruz!!!!

I, like, love you.

THE "TALK"

Sara

i don't get it?

2:17pmHedieh

b/c no touching is allowed between the sexes

but we inevitably start like-liking the members of the opposite sex

2:18pmSara

so you can't talk?

2:18pmHedieh

right

you CAN talk

but parents just worry that it will lead to other things

2:19pmSara

talking leads to touchingggg!

; )

OH NO!

SEXXX!

2:19pmHedieh

lol

well

....

it all begins somewhere though

right?

Today, while I'm reflecting on my life.

She leaned in and squeezed my hand as she said to me, "You love a very special young man." I kindly nodded, and then replied, "I know," and smiled. 

Congratulations, Sean.

Note to self: Summer does not mean

the end of commitments. 

I've got a lot of responsibilities still. 

(the yearbook supplement, preparing for three summer camps I'm working at, AP homework, summer reading, selling/buying textbooks, family commitments, etc.)

...But I'm hoping for a lot of fun mixed in.

:)

hello, summer

Imagine paradise,

Practice beauty.

Ending May

Class Day! And now a senior. It was my best Class Day so far. : ]

Backpacking trip on Memorial Day weekend. 

Big Basin.

It was a little cold, but totally worth it.

I look very excited to be going on a hike. Haha. 

Fun, fun, fun.

Not an angry rant. And a little bit of gratitude.

My first reaction upon hearing what had happened was, "let me tear out that poem about her, rip it up-- because I don't mean it." I was so angry at my mom, but I think I need to accept the way my life is (and has always been). I kind of hate that feeling, because it seems so passive and weak, but I think it's just about having that serenity. 

Oh, gosh, my parents could learn a thing or two about raising children. Oh well.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed. 

If my parents TRULY knew me, I think they'd either be slightly horrified, OR really really amazed and relieved. I think I'm a good person. I do things right sometimes. I struggle, fail a little bit, but that's normal right? 

Sean loaned me a book about fighting against low expectations. I like a lot. I want to constantly defy society's low expectations of me as a teenager, but simultaneously I'm trying to deal with my parents' overly high expectations of me. So it's a paradox, and I don't think it's supposed to be easy. 

Rei loaned me a book about...a kiss, love, society, culture, sex, religion....a lot of topics! Haha, but really it's brief and beautiful and I'm enjoying it also.

So thank you, to both of you.

Oh yeah-- SUMMER!!!!

[tomorrow officially.]