survive.

distance myself, more space.

break.

i hesistate.

stop-pause-

don't say sorry.

be rational, don't jump to conclusions.
how about you look before you leap?
your drop in self-esteem
was visible in that moment.
trust. enjoy. carefree...
please, you're great.
-the optimist

to a girl i've known so long:

you will never see this,

because you don't pay attention.

it's okay if she doesn't want to talk to me.

it's okay if she doesn't like to remember

all of our games, all of those afternoons,

all of our memories.

i just wanted to let her know

that i still do.

oh my gosh, i feel bad now

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry.

i feel remorse for my lies.

[i will apologize to this person tonight.]

I love you, i don't deserve all of it,

i'm disappointing.

one more thing,

[to the person i'm thinking about]

i wholeheartedly like our phone conversations.

[i feel a regret coming soon.]

: /

To no one in particular:

I've got goals.

I've got inward plans;

I'm just unsure.

But I'm happy with my life.

[I just feel a need to blog sometimes.]