This is the last week.

The last week I'll get to be a true Artemis youth staff member. Camp has finally arrived. [Finally? It went by so quickly.]

Stay tuned.

I want to show Spreckels to the world.

Truth About Fear

I'll admit, I'm slightly afraid to tell people how I feel. I don't like putting stuff out there for people to judge me or even know me. With people I really trust, it's easier, of course. But, you might say, what about your blog? What about those life-changing friends and experiences you talk about?

It's true that I have opened up a lot. Still, once an introvert, always an introvert. I express myself totally in private writing, but continue to post blogs with symbols and quotes. I draw little cryptic sketches. I'm happy that I have people in who I can really confide. Although sometimes I truly love company, I enjoy walking by myself. I used to like photographing people but now I prefer trees and tire swings and interesting landscapes. For reasons I can't blog about, I also take pictures of Chevrolet Tahoes.

So I'm happy. And I have one piece of advice. If you want to reread a book you liked, read it again. Who's stopping you?

"Her Praise"

She is foremost of those that I would hear praised.
I have gone about the house, gone up and down
As a man does who has published a new book,
Or a young girl dressed out in her new gown,
And though I have turned the talk by hook or crook
Until her praise should be the uppermost theme,
A woman spoke of some new tale she had read,
A man confusedly in a half dream
As though some other name ran in his head.
She is foremost of those that I would hear praised.
I will talk no more of books or the long war
But walk by the dry thorn until I have found
Some beggar sheltering from the wind, and there
Manage the talk until her name come round.
If there be rags enough he will know her name
And be well pleased remembering it, for in the old days,
Though she had young men's praise and old men's blame,
Among the poor both old and young gave her praise.

William Butler Yeats

Photography

We've all got our own style.

This is what I needed to read.

“Some of us fuss so much over making the ‘right’ choice, but in life, all that’s really needed is to make any’ good’ choice, believe in it, go through with it, and accept the consequences.”

I'm not so much a perfectionist as I admittedly do have perfectionist-like tendencies at times. I need to be reminded to look at the big picture and to enjoy things as they come. I look forward to things too much, and when the thing involves work, I end up overspent or procrastinating. Two extremes I want to avoid. 

However, I'd like to think that my blog is one of positivity. I want to be the type of person to exude optimism, not my own insecurities. I will be happy, always, if I only remember that I am.

I need YOUR help!

I've been taking photos. 

Walking around Spreckels. 

Doing dull things like laundry. 

Not completely a waste. 

But I need your suggestions of interesting things I can do and keep my days filled! Reply with comments below. :)