Friday's Quotable Post

"Be of love more careful than of anything."

-e.e. cummings

November 18

For me, there are many good things to look forward to today. It seems like so many events are planned for November 18. Soon, I will register for next quarter's classes. I'm anticipating that to go well (or at least better than my first quarter registration).

Not to jinx my luck, but I have an ideal schedule in mind that I'd like for winter quarter. Stats 10, Art History 57, and the next quarter of my freshman cluster on sex, biology, and society. It may seem that my class choices are arbitrary, but I am trying to focus on fulfilling general education requirements. Today is important because (hopefully!) I can secure a place in that statistics course and the art history one. Mrs. Dotto, my high school art history teacher, was definitely influential in my selection.

Today is my anniversary with Sean, which makes both of us super happy. Despite the fact I can't see him until next week, it's still exciting and makes November 18 a wholly positive day on the calendar. It's weird, even for me, to think of being with the same person for two years. Really, though, it was effortless. I feel like this is more of a post for Sean to read, but I'm trying not to make it too gross and romantic. :)  I've learned a lot about being in a relationship from pure experience, and I know how to have a great, healthy relationship. Even when it's a long-distance one. 

This part of my post will make Sean upset because he is not with me, but....tonight is the premiere of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part One! All of you Harry Potter fans should be very excited. I know I am. I will try to stay awake and energetic until then!

P.S. Sean, I love you. Thank you for everything.

Conditional Hand-Holding

Holding hands is nice, circumstantially. Weather permitting, it's good. If it's too hot outside, both people's hands will get sweaty. If it's too cold outside, hands belong more to pockets; otherwise they'll get cold. I like hand-holding. It's good for brief moments and strolling around in moderate climates.

Something given; Something taken.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.  -Helen Keller

Infinity.

Blossoming.

Tranquility.

Love. 

Restlessness.

More.

Immensely.

Remember.

Unbelievable.

Graceful.

Peace.

Closer.

Try.

Curiosity.

Beginning.

Serious.

Gentle.

Happiness.

A little bit of clarity.

Everyone who reads this is (hopefully) my friend, so I wanted to clear things up about the strange changes in my relationship status over the past couple of days. I know this may not be okay with the boyfriend, but I'm proceeding. 

I never wanted to be the kind of girl, or the have the kind of relationship, where breaking up was something to be taken lightly. It is. I am deeply apologetic. I take my long-term relationship seriously, not to the point where it interferes with other things in my life, but so that it is relatively happy and stable. I know it hasn't seemed like that. I take all of the blame- I make mistakes, and treating someone who loves me in the manner that I did was completely uncalled for and immature.

I keep little thoughts secret in my mind and repress them until they become huge, weighty problems. That in itself is probably worse than the problems! I mess up, I screw up. The underlying message is that I'm sorry. And I hope I can redeem my drama-free image soon.

You're my bright and shining star.

You know, I never realized that I was afraid to fall in love until I actually did.

You have a lot of freckles.

But I like you anyway. :)

Eleven months, one day.

Promise(s)

I wrote a poem half a year ago about the first promise.

And now, for a second one.

I'm still thinking, silently and inwardly.

Was it an impulse?

Sure, I hit "Send" and then, I was talking on the phone,

Blurting out words.

But I meant it.

Making promises.

It's easy to do when you're obsessed.

I'm not going to be the one to stop,

I can guarantee.

Promises to keep!

I didn't know...

"When you cry, it makes your mouth wetter."

.........

"You know what this song reminds me of?"

"What?"

"Those times after school, and when we used to go to circle park."

.........

I wasn't (we weren't) expecting that.

I'm going to miss you.

♥

[weekend study break]

quotable:

Gravitation is not responsible for

people falling in love.

-albert einstein

Remember, forever.

Sean and I went to prom last night, and I had such a great time. Pictures, corsage & boutonniere, almost getting lost, limo ride (I fell...haha), more pictures, dinner, everything else!

I got home at like 1:30 this morning. 

And I love you, Sean.

Happiness

[I've got only minor problems, small obstacles, tiny annoyances right now.]

They're overshadowed by happiness.

One day of school left, and then I can make the most of a brief vacation from school.

Sleep, study, refresh, enjoy.

One month, in actuality, of the semester remains. I'm surviving.

One great past weekend that I'm liking to look back upon, because I smiled a lot. ♥

One wonderful boyfriend who likes to impress me, make me happy, and adore me. I am feeling quite lucky lately, let me just say.

It's only Prom, but he made me feel like the most special person alive. [with flowers and all!]

: }

who knew there was so much love in the world?

 

i think i understand.

Share your secret

With me, please,

If you need a listener.

The insecure and intimate

And self-exposing thoughts

Will not escape the confinements of your trust.

I am not skilled in speaking

Or making small, idle talk.

The words, the expressions

Convey more meaning flowing into my brain

Than they do when I hear the noise

Uselessly leaving my mouth.

I like to listen, relate, and debate.

I like to console, counsel, and empathize.

I even like nodding my head.

Share with me 

Anything that goes on in your mind

That would like to come outside.

Let me sit with you,

Let me think, cry, and try to

Have a new perspective.

Make the small talk,

Make the even bigger talk,

Make whatever you wish,

And I will be there.

So please shut me up,

But never shut me out.

I am a listener.

My life

Currently,

I'm in love for the first time in my life.

I'm sixteen years old, so this is probably totally normal.

But it feels like the most special thing in the world.

And this feeling has just been getting stronger, as time passes, but I'm completely sure of how I feel and all of my emotions. It's hard to express exactly what I'm experiencing on a daily basis.

But it's amazing.

[he's incredible. and the nicest boy i've ever known.]

: )